history repeats itself

History repeats itself so I can't fall in love
The last time that did that, I was young and I was dumb
It ended real bad and then I started usin' drugs
Shawty made me sad, I still feel like I'm not enough
I ain't close to no one cuz it
hurts too much when they decide to leave
I'm still treatin' open wounds, takin' all the time I need
That girl promised me forever, those were words she didn't keep
Yeah, I'm traumatized but in the end, the truth will set me free
I just pray someday that all this pain will disappear
And that I'll feel like me again when I look in the mirror
Barely hangin' on, I'm hurtin' still, my heart is pierced
My eyes haven't tried yet, I've been cryin' endless tears
I've been fightin' my emotions, tryna stay sober
Used to live life fast, I'm tryna go slower
Ain't no answers to the questions that I have, I never had closure
It was just over