Forever

Having convos with my demons
When I know should be leaving

Awake a few more hours
When I know I should be sleeping

Put my em in a safe
How the fuck they keep breaching?

They got nothing left to say
So how the fuck they keep preaching?

I've been paying higher prices for my younger years
Gotta let go of my vices before the sun appears

Man I've always been a writer
I think I forgot the words

Like I've always been a fighter
Think I forgot my verbs

Always running in my dreams
Cuz all I see is a hearse

Thought I was losing faith
They tried to take me to church

It's hard to give them lessons
If they ain't on it to learn

It's hard to live as a blessing
If you're the one feeling cursed

These are views from the bottom
Of the bottle I've been drinking

Views from the center of myself
I've been thinking

Views from the captain of the ship
When it's sinking

Views from the wave tonight
Ive been drinking

The warmth from the fire god damn it I still feel it
The walls getting higher god damn it I'm still healing

I ain't tryna let all these days lose meaning
I ain't dtf god damn it I need feeling

Remember all the days we used to watch cells saga
Think I'm no where near my final form
Truth be told I adore
All my darkest days because they made me to the man I form