Songtexte hermana - Eldon Downs

pastor, i need you
cause i don't know what to say
fucked up my shirt
and i can't tie my tie
it's your final rite
yet i sit here, so weak
im so
so so.
so weak

i'm sorry, i don't know what to say
so imma just let the CD play

even though
i may just be too late
forgive me
you had no room to hate
but even if you did
i forgive you

you smile, it lit the whole room up
never got a chance to see it
but maybe sometime down the road
i'll feel it
like the sun on me
on me on me

shalalalalalala (hey)
shalalalalalala (hey)
shalalalalalala (hey)
shalalalalalala (hey)
shalalalalalala (hey)
shalalalalalala (hey)
shalalalalalala (hey)
shalalalalalala (hey)
shalalalalalala

tell us how you really feel.

hey you, listen
this is a singing bowl

this probably a bad time
to reach out to you
20 something loop around the sun
i couldn't see it through
can you even here me from where your at?
apologize
should've called you
sometime way back
i know you closed yourself off to the world
i respect your wishes
i've been avoiding this verse
like it's some dirty dishes
i'm not a human being
i just claim to be
all i am is what i eat
lately and to that
i say it's nothing

man

who am i who am i
who do i think i am?
dancing to the radio
in the kitchen before papa got home
foiling all the plans
can't say i made amends
with the old man at the service
kept his shades on the whole time
i managed to have some courage

that was eons ago
he's never called since
your sons need you
but the ego, he's protecting his
of course i'd pick up the phone
guilty for already not doing it
ribs so fucking sore
you win alright
im just defeated

i got my face from my pops
im doing what he wanted me to do
sticking by shitty rules
making chip tunes
while she dies in the other room
gonna be sick
can't live it down
i'm gagging everyday
mom is all worried
climb out of this pit
she's finally happy
that'd be so lovely

shit

but what about me man?
call me selfish
but i crave attention
i feel invisible
like translucent
was i in here?
oh you must have missed it
night terrors wake up weeping
voice so raw
oh don't want to mention

how am i supposed to function
when the person i love
doesn't even recognize me?
always come through
maybe just ring my line
be all fine
asking me about how i feel

what maybe i drove what little
i had left
it just has to be
can't seem to just cope
leave me hanging
like my neck on a rope
i don't deserve my friends
or maybe they just don't deserve me

i'm a little mouse named stuart
lo siento mucho
this my final scream
rest easy.

am i dead?