Songtexte Kamikaze - Goodsleeper

They tried to tell me that my mind got
Fucked up from the drugs, but I beg to differ
Only started chasing highs just so I could kill my liver
Didn't wanna keep on living as a kid, and so I figured
What's the matter with a little bit of Poison in my figure?

I never wanna the one that's sentimental though
Had to get a better tone, numbin when gettin low
Forgot to build a ladder, hit the bottom of the rabbit hole
Couldn't fathom that I had to find a way out on my own

Fuck this pain bestowed upon to me
I still can't resist this urge I got to bleed
Left a lot of rules broken, hoped to end up in the sea
Throat open for the feed, float away never to be seen again
But I can't just let go of the past
Who I am feels like a mask on top of who I used to be
No I didn't think I'd last this long, but look at me
Who I be and who I've been is just a moment scheme

Got too dizzy from runnin round in circles
No I never miss a thing but don't think I deserve all this shit that I'm feelin now
Escaped from the abuse, the shit felt like a roof on top to keep me from gettin loose
From livin like animals I'm free and I cannot grow
It seems like I'm livin in a dream, I don't want it though
I'm feelin like getting freedom for me is impossible
Leavin that scenery is haunting me, I'm a cannibal

I'm eating away at myself, Feel like I may need some help
Fallin apart again and I'm hoping nobody can tell
Left in the vile emission, something inside of me
Hissing 'I can't revive what I'm missing that me is dead and in hell"
I don't know why I keep letting my mind divide and then set in lies I abide and regret it
I am the pilot with a Kamikaze mentality nose diving into everything I built for myself
But forgot why I decided to, you get it?