Mistakes

Way too many times
I could count feeling such self doubt
I'm staring through a mirror questioning how I appear to others
While i'm getting so caught up with lovers
That never wanna meet my mother
Oh brother lets skip that one
And now I missed your call and now your pissed and we're done
Don't even bother me you can skip the whole apology
Cause I don't wanna hear how much you fear losing me because it's probably another mistake
Just another time you decide to waste
Do you really feel that great
Tell me honestly how are you okay
How could you sit back and see my heart break
Hear my voice tremble and start to shake
As i'm begging you to stay fuck a heartbreak
I'm not even sure you even loved me
Tell me why you had me feeling like I was so lucky love sure is funny
How it doesn't make me laugh
Doesn't matter how much you give to someone cause they don't care about all that
They don't care about it at all

So now i'm just a picture in a memory bag
And you're sitting all alone at your mom's pad
You're staring at the floor overdosing on this and that
The memories that play like a movie in your brain
You're scrolling through your phone
You're trying to look away
But it ain't the same
All those drugs may get you high but you know you can't smoke me away
I'm not just a puff that you hit and then you pass
I'm so much more than that
If you're not aware then girl that's sad
I've been feeling stuck caught up in a lie lately
You said you hate me
Even when you said I love you
I coulda been writing down my feelings in these songs
I should've been loving me all along
Now i'll write these songs about how much that heartbreak made me strong