Songtexte Why (Memories) - MC Cubed

Why are the good memories buried
Why are the bad memories carried
Why is it so hard to heal
Why does looking back cause hurting
Why does it feel so unnerving
Why is this sickness all I feel

Back then I had a whole lotta friends
At least that's what I believed
Til the time we spent would end
I didn't realize I was deceived
Was it me? Was I the reason you longed to leave?
When I thought I was an evergreen with all the leaves
Turns out I was a fallen tree
Honestly, I gotta give credit to the past
From what I remember I was at peace
So even if people despised or chastised
It never really got to me
Lost track of those that talked behind my back
But I would never fall beneath
I would just move on with ease

How I miss the days when I thought everything would be A-OK
When I'm older, but those have gone away

Why are the good memories buried
Why are the bad memories carried
Why is it so hard to heal
Why does looking back cause hurting
Why does it feel so unnerving
Why is this sickness all I feel

Stabbed in the back but the wounds would go unnoticed
Can't tell if it's a good thing or a bad thing, I'd be losing so much focus
Only now I realize that I never really dodged the bullets
Especially when doctors tried to pull it
I'd be asking myself, "What's wrong with me?
Why can't I move on with modesty?"
There's gotta be an explanation
When I ask people they'd never state it
They'd just tell me "fix yourself" as if it was helping
There's problems, we could solve em if you would tell me
But you would rather keep me wandering and wondering
Keep me pondering and thundering- literally brainstorming
Why can't I put a halt to the pain forming

How I miss the days
When I thought everything would be A-OK
When I'm older, but those have gone away

Why are the good memories buried
Why are the bad memories carried
Why is it so hard to heal (memories, oh memories)
Why does looking back cause hurting
Why does it feel so unnerving
Why is this sickness all I feel (memories, oh memories)

Why am I here, why am I scared, is the end near
I don't know, should I hold on, should I stay strong, what's going on
Where should I go, I don't know, stuck in a dead end once again
World so cold, on my own, I might just not make it, yeah
Picking my thoughts out, can't control them, you seen them, they run wild
I don't know where to go, see I'm trapped now, rather be all alone than to go out
I'm 18 and I don't got it figured out, yeah, that's a man down
Degenerate incompetent fool with his pants down
I made a promise that someday that I'd make it out
And never to back down, I'm claiming the king's crown
But memories flowing again, it got me wondering like
I don't know, memories cold, attacking my soul, yeah, yeah
I don't know, where should I go

Why are the good memories buried
Why are the bad memories carried
Why is it so hard to heal (memories, oh memories)
Why does looking back cause hurting
Why does it feel so unnerving
Why is this sickness all I feel (memories, oh memories)