Fallen Angel

Ashes from my cigarette
Burning through my sofa
It's 12 o'clock on the dot
Can't believe I'm sober
Can't afford to medicate
So I decided to meditate
Give up cuz it's too hard
A second then it's over
Job applications
Keep stacking up at my front door
With the past due bills
Spend my last on new trills
Looking for some luck
I count the pedals on a clover

Missing all your calls
Sorry I don't want to talk much
I just took a deep fall
I just hit the bottom
Feelings that I keep off
Breaking me
Aging me
And changing me
I'm the one who seem to cause problems
Inside
My ride
Two seat
You me
New wife
New life
My child
My seed
Get high
We fly
The sky
We see
Our soon
To be
Our goals
Our dreams
Inside
My ride
Two seat
You me
New wife
New life
My child
My seed
Get high
We fly
The sky
We see
Our soon to be
Our goals our

Change my bio pic
There's something wrong with my complexion
I can't have a million people see this face without discretion
Plastic how I'm living but I'm used to fake impressions
Me telling you I'm happy is the thing that keeps me stressing
I can't deal with peoples words they seem to hit me like the hardest
An opinions an opinion but I've heard it for the longest
They say the ones who struggle always seem to be the strongest
I'm loosing weight
And loosing faith
So tell me what strong is
On this
Dark drink
Not a drinker
But I wanna know just how the dark thinks
Drunk as hell I need a reason why
Life ain't simplified
My nine to five is starting to stink
Passing by
Time is passing by
Faster then I think
Forever
And ever
And ever
I'm falling
Forever
And ever
And ever
I'm falling

Missing all your calls
Sorry I don't wanna talk much
I just took a deep fall
I just hit the bottom
Feelings that I keep off
Breaking me
Aging me
Changing me
I'm the one who seem to cause problems
Inside
My ride
2 seat
You me
New wife
New life
My child
My seed
Get high
We fly
The sky
We see
Our soon
To be
Our goals
Our dreams

PTSD roaming through my conscience
From the day that I was born
I was one of God archangles
Til, he saw my truer form
This punishment something I can't endure
Walking round with head down
Never to the sky
I've been shunned
By the holy one
I'm what he despise
I guess life I got on earth
May just be my second chance
And if that's the plan
I wish he could've told me in advance