Lyrics m i n d // inter.lude - 81rexx

Writing in my journal
I might make it a song
Finding ways to convey the mind space that I'm on
I miss them Sunday's at church
Friends and family along
We praise GOD and the sermon hit home, it's raw
But then I grew up and I felt GOD wasn't involved
I looked to drugs, gave hugs, still prayed for us all
I hate seeing people that I care for feeling like me
Thought life was looking up, I fell in love with a pisces but I see
I needed that development
Fell a few more times fore finding someone that's heaven sent
Like always though, my problems were too relevant
Still having sex for the hell of it
But I can't put you through what I put everyone else through
Cause I can't ever make up for the heartbreaks I dealt you
I was tryna be too careful
Couldn't tell you how I feel
I was never there to help you
Writing in my journal everything that's on my mind
Like how I need a 9-5, but I wanna rhyme
And how I wanna live but I'm steady racing time
Thinking bout my family and how one day they gonna die
How I need to die last, don't need to deal with mine
I'ma heal as times pass, still have you on my mind
But if while I'm young and my time come
Plant my ashes
And let me grow steady over time

Writing in my journal got a lot that's on my mind
Writing in my journal got a lot that's on my mind
Writing in my journal got a lot that's on my mind
Writing in my journal got a lot that's on my mind

Spilling all my feelings putting pen to these pages
Sitting staring heavy thinking bout my life in stages
Visualizing my life when I'm finally up on stages
Ain't no other energy can taint this
Spilling all my sorrows, tears messing up my pages
Praying that tomorrow brings happiness and patience
Smoking, thinking why I stopped meditating

Writing in my journal got a lot that's on my mind
Writing in my journal got a lot that's on my mind