Lyrics When the Lights Go Out - Adam Turley

You're lookin' at me, the smile that says I'm happy
You know the sad thing?
It's never been this lonely
Why am I laughing when I don't think you're funny?
I feel so badly
For givin' up the old me

And when I really break down, my bad
Start to realize I might have failed ya
I didn't try, I compromised who I am inside
And I've been keepin' chips on my shoulders
Instead of wiser, I'm just gettin' older
I just watch me die
I think I need to save my life

I wonder: when did I sell out?
When will I learn to trust myself?
Who am I when the lights go out?
When the lights go out
I guess I really lost myself
By tryin' to be someone else
Who am I when the lights go out?
When the lights go out

Everybody's tryna be so loud
Should I open up or should I shut my mouth?
Every time I speak, it's like you're zonin' out
I guess that's what I get for bein' vulnerable

I could lie and say I don't really care what you think
But I die every time I feel there's things you're hidin'
Why's it so hard to just say what I mean?
(What do I mean?)

And when I really break down, my bad
Start to realize I might have failed ya
I didn't try, I compromised who I am inside (who I am inside)
And I've been keepin' chips on my shoulders
Instead of wiser, I'm just gettin' older (older, older, older)
I just watch me die
I think I need to save my life

I wonder: when did I sell out?
When will I learn to trust myself?
Who am I when the lights go out?
When the lights go out
I guess I really lost myself (I guess I really lost myself)
By tryin' to be someone else (tryin' to be someone else)
Who am I when the lights go out? (who am I when the lights go out?)
When the lights go out

When will I learn to trust myself?
When will I learn to trust myself?
When will I learn to trust myself?
Who am I when the lights go out?

When will I learn to trust myself?
When will I learn to trust myself?
When will I learn to trust myself?
Who am I when the lights go out?