Lyrics Alone - Adeum

Tryna find me we'll have fun here
And I done came a long long way from home
It's prolly best for me if I don't care
And I always just find myself alone
Shit is looking scary don't go up there
And I done did a lot of damage on my own
I make me hard to love and it's unfair
Sometimes I don't know what I be on
Shit is looking scary don't go up there
And I done did a lot of damage on my own
It's prolly best for me if I don't care
Cuz I always just find myself alone

I swear my toxic behavior gone be my suicide
And I been craving daily for some time just you and I
I got bad habits of loving hard I turn to a fiend
But I'm emotionally scared bound to trip off anything
So the test to paradise won't be an open book
And I just rolled the dice and didn't take a second look
And now we here but I don't really know where here is at
I go to speak my mind but sumetimes you ain't hearing that
So now I'm closing off and you won't get that close again
I know that loves a war but sum battles not supposed to win
I put my heart on lock and key I feel like Davey Jones
Now it's a place up in my chest that you cant call yo home
Now it's some things up in my head that might just drive me crazy
I gotta stop tryna find my worth up inside a lady
Can't take it personal every time that I feel offended
Listen from hurt and you'll be hurt I do my best to mend it

Tryna find me we'll have fun here
And I done came a long long way from home
It's prolly best for me if I don't care
And I always just find myself alone
Shit is looking scary don't go up there
And I done did a lot of damage on my own
I make me hard to love and it's unfair
Sometimes I don't know what I be on
Shit is looking scary don't go up there
And I done did a lot of damage on my own
It's prolly best for me if I don't care
Cuz I always just find myself alone

Been so many rainy days I question sunny ones
And outta disbelief start blocking when the blessings come
And outta insecurities I always question sumthing
But you can have what feelings left I swear the rest is numb
Cuz I been lied to so much that I need to see the proof
Wanted so bad to be in love that I ignored the truth
Some people took some pieces from me hope that they complete
But I'll still take these broken pieces make a masterpiece
Cuz I'm still finding me and learning where my best is at
And ain't no filling up sum voids I do my best with that
But if I feel it then I say it can't regret they choice
Spend too long not speaking out then you'll forget your voice
Let em' pull you down too long I guarantee you drown
But if nobody heard my screams then did I make a sound
So I just scream into this silence they won't see me breaking
They only seeing what is gained not everything it's taking

Tryna find me we'll have fun here
And I done came a long long way from home
It's prolly best for me if I don't care
And I always just find myself alone
Shit is looking scary don't go up there
And I done did a lot of damage on my own
I make me hard to love and it's unfair
Sometimes I don't know what I be on
Shit is looking scary don't go up there
And I done did a lot of damage on my own
It's prolly best for me if I don't care
Cuz I always just find myself alone