Lyrics Honesty II - AdrielFaith

Lately I've been feeling it the most
Health, mental and spiritual issues are what I'm composed of
And did I mention that I'm struggling with financial problems

That don't come as no surprise, everybody got em
Loneliness is taking over areas of my life
Is it who has a problem tryna do things right
I guess so

Cause everybody seems to have it under control
Hey
I will admit I get the feeling I'm not worth it
Passed up many open doors thinking I didn't deserve it

Till this day those thoughts still roam and remain
I keep doubting my music will drive me places that require a plane
Like Rome or Maine, yeah I know that's insane
The only reason that I say it, that's what people have said

Now we hit the topic of the voices in and outta my head so
Tell me then, who's to blame for all the things that they saying
All I'm saying is these problems don't affect me
Ironic how I'm lying in my second song of honesty

Honestly, I be having many troubles constantly
Keep a smile, make em smile, that's my only policy
Will they even tell the difference? Maybe so, possibly
Will they even take a listen? I don't know, probably

Here I go with all of my thoughts thinking out loud
I struggle with acceptance so I need to hear I'm proud
I've got issues with the people who be living by the fakeness
Partially why I write this is to tell y'all I'm a straight mess

I don't claim to be big, I don't claim to be clean
I just claim to be me, on this trail that I bleed
I got labels calling up, offering a dotted line
I got people offering labels, Christian artist where I draw the line

Ooh, I know I stirred some controversy up in that line
And I know I ain't lying, honesty two lay it all on the line
Can I speak a little more this time
Is being honest such a crime in these times?

Is it? Let me talk
I'm in my time of confusion, maybe my time of conclusion
I wrote a note to myself saying I'd give up the music
And at the time it felt right, but at the same time delusional

That's when I started the prayer, but yet the failure was usual
That's when I came to realization of a lie that I've been living for years
All the prayers that I've been sending have been based on my fears
All these milestones I've made I know ain't worthy of cheers

Cause I'm the fakest of all, and that's just me being real
I've been sewing in this craft but I have barely reaped a dime
Now I'm really starting to think that all this crap ain't worth my time
It's a dream that won't provide, mommas health is on the line

And my father's next in line, can't afford for them to buy me
Because the paper isn't truly that inspiring
It's the fact that it's their hope that I'm reviving
And from that hope will come the faith they've been declining

Hey, yeah, that's the reason I came to this
Game trying to change in this, still I'm the same in this
That could only mean that I was actually made for this
Everything that I am doing are results of all the times that I have been praying for this

Yeah, but this industry's a cold one
It affects you in the long run, and you're bound to lose some strong ones
Yeah, but I won't talk about that now
Let's just wait till number three and we'll see what that's about

Hey
AdrielFaith
Honesty Two
Yeah, I'm out man