Lyrics Am I Next? - Alternative Flow

Watch out for Alt. Flow
The star changed my mood
And these bars will make me rude
That is how I am viewed

Am I supposed to be next?
To be in the this perplexed position
That this depression is my only flex
Or that humans made life more perplexed

The reality is that I hate life here
The suicidal thoughts hitting too deep that I got speared
Taking this depression to high gear
Not giving a fuck that happiness still exists here

Can there be things that I care?
To make my life be fair?
'Cause this is bullshit
That life treats me like a misfit

Outside at night thinking what's to give
Can I really forgive
Humans to really live?

I've been bad for so long
So slim that I can't stay strong
Where else do I belong?
'Cause this lifestyle isn't lifelong

Was I meant to be taken advantage of?
That made me feel damaged
How can I manage
To stay happy?

There's an assassin called Alt. Flow
And he's here to kill me
Nobody can be me 'cause I am still me
To be grim and not forgive me
(Your loss)

I need something to bring me back to life
'Cause the assassin has a knife
He knows that 20 years young I am still a lowlife
Something will be good in your afterlife
(He's coming for you)

I've turned heartless
While most of these humans are ruthless
I might as well build a fortress

'Cause I feel like I am in a warzone
Good vs bad, I have no idea what's my own zone
All these people do bad things when they are a rolling stone

Something is not working
I'm the next up to be weird and disturbing
I can't get a girl, when I look hideous and distressed
I can't be outside and feel all happy wit' finesse

Yes, I need help
I have scars that needs to heal
I wish I can be strong as steel
But people give me the same advice and I can't appeal

'Cause reality will get worse and worse
I don't know who, but someone gave me a curse
I wish I can be PG wit' this verse
But life is ready for me to disperse
And Alt. Flow agrees wit' it

Life is kicking my ass
And I can't bypass
This sadness
Depression is taking over my happiness