Lyrics 17 - Arkh Zeus

Well I guess shorty ain't reciprocate my love after all
Now my path involves lashing off when I don't have enough of adderall
To keep myself from doing bad alone
Well that barely helps, 'cause you know my demons like to tag along
When I'm trippin', as if it ever made that much of a difference
This is by far the most intense state of being I've ever been in
Everything feels so vivid, contradictin' cause I barely try to pay attention
Unless we're talking 'bout my feelings for her, in that case you know that I'm hurt
My past convinced to me I'm cursed
I might crash if I feel one more curve

Just like that, now I'm flying with birds
The right pack, I'm excited to burn
Light dab, now I'm actually swervin'
Slight dash, through the bad I've been earnin'
All because of my mistakes, but who set the template for me to be great?
It wasn't my mother, it wasn't her mate
Ain't have no big brother, ain't have me no dame
And outsiders got the audacity to be asking me why did I change
How could you expect my soul to stay the same?
I'm still a youngin' tryna find a way
With no direction, still hope for progression, long as I pick up the pace
I'll lessen my usage of her name in vain, but what can I say?
It got me thinking bout all the orange that's up in my face
Swear it's a simulation of her taste
Bet you forgot I got to feel your glaze
Yeah just for a second, but that's all it takes
Now I refuse to cut off any traces, I wanna feel it all in my veins
Let the blood travel up to my brain, keep me high while these drugs do its thing

Chasing a numb, that's that dangerous love
'Cause if you ain't making me cum, then how could you claim you're enough?
Well I am not making this up when I say that I'm probably never ever gonna feel love again
Luna, you don't want me? Damn, that's okay
I will never forget the good and bad that you did for me babe

What do you feel
When you're all alone?
Is it hurt that burns inside?
What do you feel
When you're all alone?
Is it hurt? Does it burn on the inside?
If so, tell me why

Everything, and I mean everything
That I emotionally attach myself to eventually ends up falling apart
Leaving me lost and damaged, as if I was never gone from the start
I'm a loner, I'm a goner, I'll be suffering here for much longer
Here in this cycle where there is no end
Still can't seem to make amends with my trauma
Those seem to be the roots of my problems
Causing me to lash out while I decay here in this autumn
I'm my own demons to be slaying so don't be shocked when
I finally go out and solve them
And that's not a caution, no that's a promise
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