Lyrics Ether - Asaiah Ziv

Because you didn't sign this 360 deal, you may or - we may or may not push your record. When Beamin came out, and you didn't really hear it on the radio station. That's cause they never took it to the radio station in the first place. The reason that there's a video for Beamin, is because I shot it with my own money. The only reason that it's on MTV, is because I had friends at MTV that said "Lupe, we wanna play your video on MTV". I'm, I'm at, I'm at the mercy of the powers that be. You know, who don't know if they wanna be a record company, or if they wanna be a management company, or if they wanna be a production company. And in the midst, I'm caught up in the midst of it. So you know, but anyway...
Pastor used to tell me count my blessings
What I'm supposed to do when bills collecting?
My credits high I owe it though
Nothing I can do when I only get 100 for a show
Tryna make my life first son
Suicide was on my mind I almost did it twice
They don't care about my life, how I really feel
They just wanna see a young man struggle
Came inside my bubble, everybody going pop
Had to leave my deal, everybody got robbed
Made a whole album, ain't even see a penny
Took all of my dough before the second one dropped
Pointing at my face saying I'm the bad guy
Promise I ain't ever meant to make the fans cry
Promise that I never wanna see my gram die
Sorry if everything that I told you was a lie
I moved from the Ve then I lived in the Chi
Stayed on my own in the middle of the South
Thank God and my bros let me sleep on the couch
I was taking a train tryna learn all the routes
I was having these dreams I couldn't tell you about
I was stuck in my past, been making my way out
Tryna better my craft, been waiting to pay out
I been getting harassed, who let my number get out?
It's funny I never got payed
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
They lying to all of they fans
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
They treating my like I'm a slave
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Never put me on a stage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
I been going through some things
I been getting used to things
A couple homies stabbed my back
And used me just to mix they tapes
These labels robbed me for my faith
They never met my dad in face
They never came to shake his hand
I was only 15
They used me to build they brand
I was never in control
I told 'em that I questioned God
They claimed they had to let 'em know
A lot of friends weren't friends in a year, you gotta learn how to love yourself
Missed my grandma's funeral, really wish I could have fixed and helped
Found God tryna find myself
Wonder if my fans think I'm going to Hell
Wonder if my fam think I'm going to Hell
I wonder if my dad think I'm going to Hell
Cause life ain't really what it seems
Now here's to tryna live my dreams
But they been tryna break me down, and put me in the magazines
It's funny I never got payed
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
They lying to all of they fans
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
They treating my like I'm a slave
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Never put me on a stage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
Now I guess I'm 'bout to rage
(I'm 'bout to rage)
All that they want is the fame
When you get it then you ain't the same
Most of my homies changed, most of my homies changed
They said that they'll have my back
They left when the pressure came
Can't even pronounce my name
Most of my homies changed
Most of my homies changed, they ain't gon' stay the same
Most of my homies changed, most of my homies changed