Lyrics It Always Ends This Way - BLCKK

This isn't fair
I did everything I'm supposed to do, I swear
I swear
And I fell too far, I guess
'Cause the hole I'm crawling out of never ends
And I'm dying in my dreams, and isn't it sad the way things seem?
Nobody ever gets to find out what this means (This means)
Don't try too hard 'cause it's never enough for him
You still wake up with the same bad thoughts
And it always ends this way
I don't ever wanna see my head
I don't wanna make 'em bury a friend
I mean it's funny all the time that I spent
Just standing there, one foot on the chair
If I'm not the farthest from perfect you ever knew about
Then it's something different about you I need to figure out
I calm down when every lie that I tell to myself isn't enough anymore
If I'm ever really gone
Playing every single song
Might be the only way to talk to me now