Lyrics If Only - Bridge

If the sun and moon were aligned
And they both crashed to the stars
If you weren't so far behind
You have a gun aimed at my heart
I can not fall victim to my rage
Feeling like a slave I do not reach out
I may never fucking see a stage
Hopping off this plane if I feel compelled
Oh if only you knew
(If only) I've been having battles with myself
Thoughts underseas let em drift away
I've been screaming yelling up to god
Throw the kid a book let me flip the page
I can not expect to walk this road
Damage to my soul leaving behold
I don't want to feel this world anymore
All my life, all my life they calling me up(?)
All my life, all my life always doubt me
All my life, all my life they calling me up(?)
If I would've known what I know now
If only I knew
If I could go back and do it all
I would change a thing
I would double up
How can you keep talking while you fall
You get double crossed, we just double up
So I'm not really hearing what you say
Pain has never got me anywhere anyway
All I really think about is this
Try to box me in
Put that thing away(?)
All my life, all my life they calling me up(?)
All my life, all my life always doubt me
All my life, all my life they calling me up(?)
If I would've known what I know now
If only I knew