Lyrics Problems 2 - Benji Kaine

Lucas

As a boy I was tortured
My step mother fed me pills and rat poison
I had basketball dreams but I was too short
I never thought that I'd be rapping on these back porches
Yeah, I never thought that this lifestyle would be that gorgeous
Never thought that I would be back to back in these black Porsches
Never thought that I'd afford this, never thought I could afford em
I thought I had a lot of problems before
But I never had that many problems till I had a lot of money
I never thought, that all this money woulda led to boredom
Ha, yeah, or led to stardom
I woulda never let the devil trick me in the garden
40 days and 40 nights in the desert I been walking
I think I'm ready for my plate I been starving
I talk to these walls waiting for em to talk back
You forward every call won't expect you to call back
I can take a hint baby I know when to fall back
I never learn till its too late and I fall fast
A hard head make a soft ass
I wandered too far and I got lost on the wrong path
Im off track, im unfocused, im off task
Im off the grid tryna crawl through the tall grass
In school I used to wander thru the halls without a hall pass
So high on aderall I'd always fall asleep and wake up in the wrong class
I keep jumping back and forth between dark R&B and soft rap
Having flashbacks from a dark past
They say home is where the hearts at
My first love broke my heart and turned it dark black
Caught feelings and I never got my heart back
I know it sounds a little far fetched

Walk by faith, not by sight
I guess that what they did when they walked out my life
I had to go and double check and it turns out im right
Im tired of seeing fake shit get out my sight
Walk by faith, not by sight
I guess that what they did when they walked out my life
I had to go and double check and it turns out im right
Im tired of seeing fake shit get out my sight

I know it sounds far-fetched and hard to believe
I love hard, yeah, I wear my heart on my sleeve
I don't know another artist working harder than me
I don't believe that Moses parted a sea
I don't believe that Jesus turned water to wine
The dream I started chasing gettin harder to find
I bet I turn your daughter to mine
My family tree was the hardest to climb, it all started with I
Im tryna reach inside the deepest, darkest part of your mind
I can't read so I been talking to god
I can't see its kinda hard when you blind
I guess that's why ducks march in a line
Im playing duck, duck, goose so don't get caught in the blind
I hope I don't get caught in a lie or caught in a fire
Always listen to my mind cause my heart is a liar
I wanna change but I can't my brain hard to rewire
I don't have no motivation and im hardly inspired
I woke up feeling awkwardly tired
Im riding till the wheels fall off don't get caught in the tires
Most people search they whole life for god but can't find him
What if god took the day off or got fired
Our whole life we been lied to
Ima be whatever the fuck I decide to
I hope you open your eyes soon and see what you blind to
You can do whatever you decide to put your mind to
You could be a fry cook, you could be a tycoon
You could prolly read minds, you could prolly fly too
Nobody can do what I do, your not me, im not you
But understand that all gods die too
Im praying I don't die soon
I hope I shed a little light just let it shine through
I hope I leave a legacy behind too
Ill prolly still do amphetamines in my tomb
I won't sleep, I prolly won't rest in peace
Even up in heaven I won't rest or eat
I see everyone as equal when you next to me
And if you woke up today you still blessed to me
If im proud of you how you got flex on me
When im depressed and im stressing who got check on me
I don't mean to flex but I think the best is me
That feeling in your chest, that's Exstacy