Lyrics Progress - Boondox

It's 4 am and I'm still starrin' at the ceiling,
37 different thoughts, but only 3 of them appealing.
I'm feeling another panic coming on but I ain't sweatin it it's just
Another demon in my room and I ain't letting it get to me like
Everything that the people that I ever trusted ever did to me.
Come home with a bad grade oh they really hitting me,
Let me get this thought out of my brain before
The little bit of love is gone and only hate remains.
It's a shame that you can't even look some people in the eye without
A little piece a part of you that withers up and dies I try to seek
Forgiveness and not to obsess I guess I'm just at work in progress.

Maybe it's my pride inside that keeps me on a one-track mind.
Broken promises comin' from both sides.
The truth will always hide up in broad daylight.
Maybe it's my pride inside that keeps me on a one-track mind.
Broken promises comin' from both sides.
The truth will always hide up in broad daylight.
Maybe its my pride.

It's 4am and I'm still layin' here alone,
Without a text without a call, but I keep starring at the phone.
She ain't home and all I'm thinkin' about is what the hell she's
Doin' who she with what they sayin' where they at who she screwing.
Starts spewing up inside that's when shit gonna start to fly.
How she gonna do me like this when all I do is try.
When all I ever do is listen try my best to pay attention puttin' all
My time and effort, and did I forget to mention all the lies that you
Kept tellin' but I looked the other way just
To make it all work and make it last another day.
I try to seek forgiveness and not to obsess.
I guess she was a work in progress.

It's 4am and the bottles all dried up pop
Another pill and all the loose ends are tied up.
I'm lied up.
I hate it but that's the way it go I mean shit
I'm only human and it don't hurt if they don't know.
And I don't show all of the signs that I'm completely out my mind
They keep askin' and I keep sayin' that I'm truly doin' fine,
And I'm truly doing fine,
Except I can't keep relationships burned a couple
Bridges and I can't even keep no patience with anyone.
It hard to explain how I can put this on so many but I'm the only one
To blame I just hope this show forgiveness and not
To obsess because I'm just another work in progress