Lyrics Back In View - CJ

My eyes on a higher plane
Talk what I want and it's bound to be fire
Flames ignite what I write, in my mind I'm a pyromaniac
Scrap flows, feel exposed like my soul in a wireframe
Higher, I elevate the highs of my mental state
Back from a low, I rerolled my priorities
Can't let this hunger fade, slacked for a couple days
Doubling down on the deck, imma run with fate
Took me 8 months just to numb the pain
That's what this bond'll do
I got a habit, I can't help but take the blame and feel responsible
So know I had a lot to do
Working on my self, self improvement felt impossible
I gotta tell the truth
My confidence dropped
I lost my positive thoughts and my attitude
As hard as it was, I put my back into this music, I got back in tune
Now the picture back in view

Running from emotions, there's plenty I don't wanna feel
Know as I only grow older, somehow I gotta find new ways to deal
Do I turn to the potions, pop a new bottle and watch as it spill
Or pour all my pain into progress
Though there's no hope I'd go back when I've opened the seal?
Hoping for deals, imma focus on healing
Rolling one up and I'm smoking my fears
Poking new holes in my ceiling
Soak in the smoke in the air
This loneliness making it clear
I ain't coping too well
Fuck it, I open my notebook, I know I ain't wrote in a min
But when all my thoughts at the tip of the pen
Is the only time that I'm finally feeling myself
I'm feeling myself