Lyrics Guesswork - CJ

I've got dark and I've got light
It's funny cause the dark is where I've focused all my life
I guess without the darkness you would never know what's bright
Holding tight to how I started pitching poems to mic
A poltergeist without regarding what I chose to write
Overnight I thought I'd rise
Like the ebb and flow of tides
With no advice I thought I'd thaw the frozen ice
Cold
Opened eyes
And yet I closed my mind
Hope to rise from what I swore to hold inside
Hope I'm right

I guess there's no rephrasing what I've said
I guess I'm too complacent for regrets
I guess I'll never change who I address
I guess I'm gunna stay with what I get
I guess I'll do away with all the rest
Guess again
I wish that I could save what I defended to my death
I wish I could erase what I pretended was my best
I wish I didn't take all of the venom they project
I wish I'd go again
I wish I could just

Wish all the hours away
Flip a switch and the night turn to day
So fucking sick of this cycle of pain
Stifling tears over trifling things
Try foot the bill or the blame
Buildings'll topple before they cop onto my name
Obvious statement
Guess that is all that I got cause I copied the greats
And popular waves

Popping a pill might help stop me from feeling this way
Dropped to my knees, I looked up and I started to pray
"If there's a God, and he's great as they claim
Then why the fuck do I feel locked in this cage
Or trapped in this maze? I cannot escape
I'm putting my heart and my soul out on public display
It's fucking insane. Have you not noticed how much I done changed?
All for the promise and prospect of fame
I properly gave my life to following fate
And watch what I've gained
None
Gotta refrain from saying dumb shit
On all of the songs that I make
Maybe I just need a break
Maybe it's time I stepped out of the shade

I've got dark and I've got light
It's funny cause the dark is where I've focused all my life
I guess without the darkness you would never know what's bright
Holding tight to how I started pitching poems to mic
A poltergeist without regarding what I chose to write
Overnight I thought I'd rise
Like the ebb and flow of tides
With no advice I thought I'd thaw the frozen ice
Cold
Opened eyes
And yet I closed my mind
Hope to rise from what I swore to hold inside
Hope I'm right
I hope I'm right