Lyrics Imperfect - CXRPSE

(Imma make yo cxrpse dance, cxrpse dance)
This is a fuckin', personal ass song. Something like that, uh
Raw emotion type beat, whatever, right

No amount of words could explain
How much I hate myself
Nothing fucking matters anyway
I might just take myself, out
Hit myself with the old yeller
Cus lately I been feeling so depressed under the weather
Everybody been making me feel worthless
Beginning to end but either way I'm still working
Thought we had something but I guess it's not worth it
So everybody's happy in this stalemate but I'm hurting
Damn, ain't it a shame how we throw blame
We fuck each other's brains
Scream then feel the throat pain
Overdosing and blowing the cocaine
I spent the summer drugged out so I had to go drain
The way I'm feeling, cus you couldn't imagine it
Thoughts of suicide, because I couldn't manage it
Had to step away and take a look where my passion is
College dropout but still a high school graduate
And then I ask
Are you proud of me Mom?
Are you proud of me dad?
Am I proud that I'm sad?
Fuck no
If it was up to me I'd never be mad
Never feel any way, always glad to be glad
But, life don't work that way
You gotta work everyday, to secure that place
Uh, and don't hurt that face
Go to the sink and splash some water
You deserve that day
Basically I always struggled with depression
It always take a death for you to learn a fucking lesson
I'm trynna learn to take the fucking day like it's a blessing
Leave the past in the past
It's time to focus on the present

Oh my god my voice cracked dummy hard