Lyrics Equals - Car Seat Headrest

Well, he was not a close friend
He was hardly a friend at all
I was as surprised as you'd be
When he asked if we could call

He said, "I've been scrolling through my contacts
But there's no one left to text
I just needed to talk to someone
Who doesn't hate me yet"

I'd engaged in some debating
Of his guilt with folks I knew
There was something in his voice
That said the worst of it was true

"Oh, they've really done it to me
I can't bear to hear my name
I used to know my real one
Now it's covered up with shame"

Without a defense, I stand
And ask if there's something left to save
'Cause what was the point of these hands
If they could give nothing but pain?

If I'm not what I'm supposed to be
If the front can't hold anymore
Could you retain any hope in me
Or leave me to drown in the feedback?

Cords 'round my feet, jackdaw at my breast
The devil's familiar comes every night
He's listening to every breath
Am I guilty again?
Is that all that I am?

I have laughed it off as crazy in the company of peers
But as you are my equal, I'll be honest with you here
That it's way too raw to talk about
With the distance that I'd like
I don't feel good about it now
And I won't when I look back

Without a defense, I stand
And ask you to take me back again
'Cause what was the point of these hands
If they could give nothing but pain?

Oh, that hero you thought
Could show you the light from the distance
And now that you know that I'm not
Could you get by with the difference?

By with the difference?
By with the difference?