Lyrics Search for Righteousness - Charisma NP

Fuck I'm so tired of getting hurt
Set a false pretense and show me That you truly care
All the times that I've been going Through and you was never There
My heart is shallow but I'm loyal I can never share.
But now its broken beat off with The sticks just like a drum and Snare
But these feelings run so deep
I'm stressing sweat is through my Hair
Therapy session every time I'm In the lair
Please don't hurt me I'm asking Don't you dare
You can see my pain right Through my glare
Big heart but all they do is use it And abuse it
Been looking for a way out so I Turned to music
So I can express my emotion in Every single line
When I'm writing every time
Either I'm getting hurt or just Full of wasted time
I can't stand the way that I feel Inside
But I'm not the one to try and Take my life
I'm a get knocked down but get Back up every time
I'm a man of sacrifice
I faced it plenty nights
Still searching for the thing that's Right
I lost myself so many times I've Been losing sight
They try to contact me I'm out Of reach at night
I don't know my wrongs from My right
I've been battling the fact that I've been so stressed
Part of the reason I'm so Depressed
I can't catch a break or else I get Distracted
Feeling schizophrenia, save me From this madness

Every time you talk I listen
Life's ruined by twisted decisions
I see you bright star to shining
Through your eyes, it's hard to See, it's so blinding
Don't be saying you love me if You don't mean it
I've heard it too many times that I don't believe it
I've been looking so far
So far
I've been waiting so long
So long
So long
Face time we be talking every day
How the fuck did we go from Perfect to being bent out of Shape
I don't know what I'm supposed To do
I'm heavy I'm loving you
But I'm scared that I'm a lose you

I've been searching for Righteousness all along
I can never be wrong
No
Heart breaks and heart attacks
No longer I ain't having that
No I'm not
My heart sealed
My pain real
Times what you can't kill
Become so numb I can't feel
No
Look how far I've come from Where I've had to go
And what got me fucked up is You stupid fucking hoes
So I just been laying low
I don't open up there's not much You need to know
Tired of these games I don't Want to play
And if you come to me then Please just be here to stay
I've been searching for Righteousness all along
I can never be wrong
No