Lyrics Prolific - China Mac

It's good to be alive, yeah!
Uh, used to be dog days and stressed nights
Now I see sunshine and catch flights
I was always the loudmouth to start fights
Always ended with court dates and pinstripes
I got sick of that, bad vibes I got rid of that, yeah
And I done gave them too much time I can't get it back
I done fell too many times, had to start from scratch
Promised mama I would change, had to give her that
It's good to put a smile on her face
Knowing that I caused so much pain and disgrace
Trapped in the life, found a way to escape
Feel like God put me through it 'cause he knew I wouldn't break
'Cause he knew that I would grow, never knew my worth
But he knew that I was gold, locked in the cell
It was there I found my soul, destined to fail
Determined to break the mold, I was forward thinking
Healthy choices equal healthy living, lead by example
Gotta live the vision, more unity and not division
Love your neighbor and- *gunshots*

Damn, tell me this ain't real
Tell me I'm dreaming
Hope it ain't my mother over there screaming
Tell why I'm laying over here bleeding
Tell me why now? How it's my time to sign out
Blood flowing out of my mouth
I was just changing my life, I was just making things right
Can't die, gotta keep fighting
Why y'all filming, give me some air
I'm losing blood, starting to fade
Regrets from my past starting to play
Who would've knew today was the day
My family depending on me
They need me here, not in the grave
Not scared to die, but not in this way
Gasping for air, nothing to say
Wish I could say my goodbyes, tell them I love them
Tell them to keep this running
Tell them look after my mother, tell them to love one another
Don't turn your back on your brother
Guess its my time, guess it was part of the plan
I did the best that I can
I made mistakes, I'm just a man
Hope God forgives, he understand