Lyrics Memories - ChrisOptified

I got all these memories inside my mind
I don't know why my eyes seem to be blind
All these thoughts are so unkind
Turns out i was on the fault line

I was losing myself
Bad mental health
My mind fell
I felt so unwell
Like i was sick
My mind was in a twist
I felt like john wick
Before the dog ceased to exist

You guessed it i was depressed
It felt like i was possessed
made me feel super stressed
And i never confessed

I just learned to deal with it
It was hard to just admit it
Right when i was getting better my parents split
I was alone with a wrist slit
That was something i couldn't get
Then i felt super sick
Then i fell in a pit

Of despair
You could look down and see i was there

I got all these memories inside my mind
I don't know why my eyes seem to be blind
All these thoughts are so unkind
It turns out i was on the fault line

I can never go back
I wish i never done that
Now i live with my scars
I wish i was on mars
So i wont be a burden
So i can stop the hurting
So I can feel worth it
So I can whatever

I don't like to look back upon the past
But my mind always makes me do that
Even when I think it's gonna be the last
My mind always wants to take the crash

I don't wanna look back on these memories
But when I make songs I make summaries
Like what I used to do with the Bible
I would read and summarize it was very vital
Made me okay for English class
Maybe it was enough for me to pass
But if yall know my story that wasn't the case
I still chose to drop it all like it was a waste of space

I don't know if I'll ever be okay
Only way you can tell is if you sit and wait
I still don't know what's wrong with me
My therapist said that they could make me see

I got all these memories inside my mind
I don't know why my eyes seem to be blind
All these thoughts are so unkind
turns out i was on the fault line

I can never go back
I wish i never done that
Now i live with my scars
I wish i was on mars
So i wont be a burden
So i can stop the hurting
So I can feel worth it
So i wont be a burden
I can never go back
I wish i never done that
Now i live with my scars
I wish i was on mars
So i wont be a burden
So i can stop the hurting
So I can feel worth it
So i wont be a burden
I can never go back
I wish i never done that
Now i live with my scars
I wish i was on mars
So i wont be a burden
So i can stop the hurting
So I can feel worth it
So I can whatever