Lyrics My Apologies - ChrisOptified

Please accept my apologies, For all that i've done
That's all i think about when i lay beneath the sun
And i can't stop thinking about what would have been
If i wasn't raised the way i was would i still have my thick skin
Would i quit smoking if i found my lighters
Or would i just be one of those fallen fighters
Please accept my apologies, For all that i've done
That's all i think about when i think about having a son

I just hope he doesnt turn out like me
Because i know how i can be
I know that i'm just a cruel person
And i don't want that to be bestowed on my mini version
I used to have depression and anger issues
All i think about is all those used tissues
But that's the past
And i'm the person my wife asked
So why should i worry about what would have been
Either way i'd still be full of all my sin
Now i'm older and im struggling
Now i know why lifes so troubling
Im older and i have a lot of pain
So i will say once again

Please accept my apologies, For all that i've done
To both of my parents for being a troubled son
i can't stop thinking about what would have been
If i wasn't raised the way i was would i still have my thick skin
Would i quit smoking if i found my lighters
Or would i just be one of those fallen fighters
Please accept my apologies, For all that i've done
That's all i think about when i lay beneath the sun

Why should i worry about what would have been
Either way i'd still be full of all my sin
I know i wont be able to escape from it
So i at least need to learn from it
That's what happens when you grow up
You learn that it's not easy to give up
I've tried and tried and tried and tried
But all i did was cry and cry and cry

Please accept my apologies, For all that i've done
That's all i think about when i lay beneath the sun