Lyrics I Lost Myself - Christian 21

I lost myself
Lost myself to Depression and health
I told myself one day that I would have wealth
I guess I'll never see that
Cause I killed myself

Now I don't want nobody feeling bad for me
Try to offer me pity or throw jabs at me
Wanna ask me what's wrong and then laugh at me
That's what's wrong with the world
It's so bad to me

Nigga can't you see
I feel like I'm no longer me
Was there a me to begin with
(Hey) I guess we'll never see

Cause I'm gone
(Happy birthday)
Your wrong
You can cut the fake smiles
There discovered and done

I be scrolling through IG
Adding to my story
(If your real, send a heart)
And yet I still see nobody

This my life on a fucking daily basis
Walking through crowds of people
I don't see faces, I see X's

That right this is my moral basis
Fuck all of the fake one's
I'm tired of being gracious
(I hate this)
Every day I'm writing love songs
But what you don't know
Is that I have exactly no one
Who brings out the brighter side of me
Gives me a reason to live, and a reason to be
But what you all don't see

Is that people like me never let it show
(So, oh)
Let it go
Live your life although
Each time you reach a higher rate
You'll end up back below
Cause that's life's way of showing you, your bound to fail
But if you wanna prove me wrong, then show me you can prevail

Will I ever see better days
I don't know
Bet you ain't ever seen me cry like this before
I was told
To always look at things a little different
See my demons through kaleidoscopes
Stand up on the chair
Pop a perc
And tie the rope
But trust me everybody
This isn't all she rote

I paint my soul
As if it was a beautiful rose
But it get passed by
Like a daisy joke

I'm so done I feel so lost
I Lost myself to Depression
What's the cost

It's the symbol of trust, the symbol of Hope, the symbol of dope
Think of all the ways that'll make me float
Pop a perc to the brain
And I called that
So...