Lyrics Hide Behind My Disguise - Cleffy

I don't think you understand
Just how much I've had to go through
To get to here where I am at right now
The amount of pain, the amount of bullshit
(Cobra) but all you need to know is that I'm here now
And you will remember this name (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Hide behind my disguise
So when you see me, please don't be surprised
You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye
Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah
Hide behind my disguise
So when you see me, please don't be surprised
You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eyе
Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yеah

Pain and sorrow makes me hate tomorrow
Happiness I borrow from my drugs and bottles
This demon inside me made me forget what's really the real me
No, I don't believe that I'll make it to 30
'Cause I hurt way too much, so I'm better off dying
Broken soul, more like a broken home
Demons take control over my brain and soul (brain and soul)
If I die then maybe peace I'll find
Too many tears I've cried, hope for another life

Hide behind my disguise
So when you see me, please don't be surprised
You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye
Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah
Hide behind my disguise
So when you see me, please don't be surprised
You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye
Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah

Fake smile (fake smile), cold nights (cold nights)
Rewind (rewind) to old times
When I was living sober, that's before I sipped wine
If I make it to October it'll be a new guy
But a new guy don't seem right
Can't imagine making music with no pain that's inside
Guess I'm destined for this life and that's the way I'll save lives
But If I ever lose my mother, that's the day that I'll die

I can't hide this pain I feel inside
Feel like I'm losing mine
And I'm stuck inside my mind
Self medicate-cating on the weed and wine
Now I'm losing my mind, can someone take my life?

Hide behind my disguise
So when you see me, please don't be surprised
You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye
Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah
Hide behind my disguise
So when you see me, please don't be surprised
You know it ain't nice, let's see eye to eye
Fake smile, so you know I ain't fine, yeah