Lyrics I Realize - Cootchill feat. Walneeezy

You showed me what you're making
It turned into a lie
But I'm not even hating
I'm just trying to hide from you
Because you hurt me so much
This is what your pride will do
Build me up, tear me down
When I'm at lowest
You can see me in sky
When you push me off the mountain
You'll be shocked I learned to fly
Without you

(I realize)
I was helping you
You were hurting me
(I realize)
I was the cure for you
You were my disease
(I realize)

See now I tried to move on
Tried to keep busy do my work and stay strong
Even started drinking
Trying to stay calm
We went the way that felt right
Yet left wrong
Days and weeks past and I still didn't know
All this time invested yet nothing to show
One thing I can't say is that I didn't grow
Why did my best friend turn into my foe?
Everything I went through
Should I tell her bout it?
She must still care
Then a voice says I doubt it
But yet the choice is still always on me
To do the right thing or let my anger release
The first is obviously better than the latter
But a quick rage stops you from getting madder
Mind over matter is how they say it works
But against the grain often leads to hurt

(I realize)
I was helping you
You were hurting me
(I realize)
I was the cure for you
You were my disease
(I realize)

Why don't you tell me?
Tell me how to feel?
I don't know why the hell we
Were missing something real
All the lies were the same
And you were to blame
'Cuz I was so in love
Now I feel the shame
I cry for the pain
But now I realize

I was helping you
You were hurting me
(I realize)
I was a cure for you
You were my disease

I realize
I realize

I realize