Lyrics I Spent the Whole Summer Crying and I Didn't Know Why - Darby O'trill

I'm drifting into the forbidden zone
There's a glitch in my brain call missingno
If you can fix it then let me know
Because living with this is just getting difficult
Take may prozac my zoloft and my depakote
Xanex effexor cymbalta and lexapro
But the monster won't let me go
Instead it seem he becomes more unbearable
Pills in my stomach,sludge in my lungs
Lysergic dissolving,corroding my tongue
I once had a life but i sold it for drugs
What use is a heart when it's broken and crushed
I've always had problems with opening up
The world is so vile so who do i trust
I feel like everything is stupid as fuck
Hate is so easy to confuse with love
Is this what it feels like to drown?
I don't know why all of this happened or how
I keep blacking out waking up on the couch
Bleeding from both my wrists and foaming from the mouth
I'm just a freak on a leash
Carving my arm with the mark of the beast
Smoking some weed
Watching dragon ball z
While i'm crafting a noose using goosebumps sheets

I spent most of my life sleeping on a bed of knives
I'm so dead inside I'm so I'm so dead inside
I spent most of my life sleeping on a bed of knives
I'm so dead inside I'm so I'm so dead inside

I look in the mirror and receive a message
You're a big pun with no talent intended
Looking myself in the eyes while i said it
I've never been one to give me any credit
Perusing the depths of my mind by each section
All have been overpowered by depression
Toxins corrode my liver and intestines
My head full of nothing but unanswered questions
Loathing myself in the dark of my room
To say I'm ok is so far from the truth
Drugs only make it much harder to move
The pain is forever my body a tomb
Mood stabilizers don't work anymore
I'm still suicidal it's worse than before
I wish i could break the confines of this corpse
Forever I'm cursed to be stuck in this mental warp

I spent most of my life sleeping on a bed of knives
I'm so dead inside I'm so I'm so dead inside
I spent most of my life sleeping on a bed of knives
I'm so dead inside I'm so I'm so dead inside

When I was just a kid
I was kicked out of the bible study
Because i had colored an angels wings black and made both of it's eyeballs all bloody
If there's a god she don't love me
Ilay in the plot you all dug me
Using the dirt and the worms that surround me as an earthly blanket to cover my ugly
Most of my life i have wanted to die
And to be honest i never knew why
I might say i'm fine but i'm seldom alright
I prefer to stay inside away from the light
Feeling so twiztid like i was a mutant
The medications only make me feel stupid
Why am i here? i'm totally useless
I'm starting to doubt if i am even human
Mechanical
But how can you program a brain
When it's broken in so many ways
I can't be fixed so just throw me away
Into a grave where i'll slowly decay
My spirit descends to the real of the shadows
My life wasn't long but it sure was a battle
It sure was a battle
My life wasn't long but it sure was a battle

I spent most of my life sleeping on a bed of knives
I'm so dead inside I'm so I'm so dead inside
I spent most of my life sleeping on a bed of knives
I'm so dead inside I'm so I'm so dead inside
I spent most of my life sleeping on a bed of knives
I'm so dead inside I'm so I'm so dead inside
I spent most of my life sleeping on a bed of knives
I'm so dead inside I'm so I'm so dead inside