Lyrics Fear2fail - Darknet

Broke and hungry
Always running on empty
Tired but can't sleep
My lifestyle is poverty
If I don't eat I might throw up
Don't have enough to get what I need
Just enough to get fucked up
But not enough to eat
Scrounging for anything
Starving to escape this suffering
Aspiration is not what it seems
There's no future waiting for me

Can't cash in on my dreams
Passion doesn't fill pockets
Nothing is what it seems
There's no secret scheme
Calling me to unlock it
The root of all evil is dying on me
I'm rotten from my misery
It'd be easier if I were six feet deep
But buying a casket isn't fucking cheap

I'm so sick of it all
I'm so sick of it all
I'm so sick of it all
I'm so sick of it all

I can't say I'm dead
But I know I'm not alive
I'd rather starve my whole life, chasing a lie
Than forfeit my life, strangled by a suit and tie
I don't want to give in
What's left would be ruined
Going back to giving up hope
Would leave me no choice but to
Choke at the end of a rope

I gotta get a break
No matter what it takes
It'd be such a fuckin waste
To throw it all away
Been burned so many times it doesn't faze me
Blurred so many lines I've gone crazy

Trapped, alone with myself
Exhausted from these ruminating thoughts
Shoving these feelings down to the bottom of a bottle
Then drinking it down

I can't say I'm dead
But I know I'm not alive
I'd rather starve my whole life, chasing a lie
Than forfeit my life, strangled by a suit and tie
I don't want to give in
What's left would be ruined
Going back to giving up hope
Would leave me no choice but to
Choke at the end of a rope

Submerge myself below the depths that I know
Until I can't remember
Where I came from
I'll follow my sorrow
Into tomorrow
Until the day this will all make up for it