Lyrics First Time (Goodbye) - Dutch

Each time is like the first time
Movin' backwards while I try to focus on what's next
You know this will be the last time
Close the door - walk away - take one last breath
All I asked you for was one try
Now I'm fallin' spillin' secrets that I once kept
You're not even worth a goodbye
Scrape my heart up out the gutter just to save what's left

And this was all a lie
Get lost, so long, goodbye

She wanna grab me by the throat but she strippin' my gold
Never thought that I was young but I'll die if I'm old
I been flexin' in the beamer movin' weight with my bros
Never thought that I was wrong but never do what I'm told
A main girl that's just something to hold
Rather run through 50 more and watch my sorrow unfold
I'm a lonely fuckin' boy and it's all that I know
Please don't try to change my life please don't show me your soul
I just want the dough get mom a crib on the coast
I know I thought I loved you but you taught me to ghost
Cuz' what the fuck is love if you need it the most
Something that's missing when you hold it so close

And this was all a lie
Get lost, so long, goodbye

Each time is like the first time
Movin' backwards while I try to focus on what's next
You know this will be the last time
Close the door - walk away - take one last breath
All I asked you for was one try
Now I'm fallin' spillin' secrets that I once kept
You're not even worth a goodbye
Scrape my heart up out the gutter just to save what's left

And this was all a lie
Get lost, so long, goodbye

She thinks she's just a girl, but she's all that I know
I told myself I'm strong, but I need her the most
I been kissin' bathroom floors since I got diagnosed
It's her love keeps me livin' I don't need to be dosed
It's dark and its cold when the sorrow's unspoke
I been grindin' on my veins till my feelings unfold
I never thought I'd live to see myself growin' old
What the fuck's a story if it can't be retold

And this was all a lie
Get lost, so long, goodbye

Each time is like the first time (all that I know)
Movin' backwards while I try to focus on what's next (need her the most)
You know this will be the last time (all that I know)
Close the door - walk away - take one last breath (need her the most)
All I asked you for was one try (all that I know)
Now I'm fallin' spillin' secrets that I once kept (need her the most)
You're not even worth a goodbye (all that I know)
Scrape my heart up out the gutter just to save what's left (need her the most)