Lyrics FO(u)RE' I Could Memba' - Eknock

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Look
Look

Sometimes you find out why you are the way you are
After you know who you are
Uh all my life I was told I'm the youngest of four
Besides my mother can't remember there being one more
Now a days bout the fifth I'm the first to plea
On my first project ain't speak much on who was first to leave
I guess every revelation needs a Genesis
Fore' I could remember my parents the real Jay and B
So when I got older I asked, "did we always struggle to eat
She said, "Who told you?" Me and your daddy made enough to feed
I asked her so what's his problem? Was he filled with greed?
Was it church, was he too cheap to plant a seed?
Said your dad had many issues it never was tithing
I thought your dad had issues thinking the pastor was hiding
My older bro said something similar at seven years
Last convo my older bro ain't even shed a tear
So, the church is why he left? momma tell me more
"You were too young when he left you were bout 4

Before I could remember all these cold Decembers
Nothing in life coincidental
Been through a lot prolly hurt my mental
Fore' I could remember
Fore' I could remember
No

Look
Most my life all I had was just us four
But not the oldest she thought a foster home would fit her more
Now a days she returns to play as a baby
Making up for lost time by driving momma crazy
Room of broken hearts, broken communication and things
I promise she thinks makes a real family
So when she visits, she tryna figure the recipe
But while she's gone we try to figure the remedy ain't see her much and no one tried to Tell
She won't be with us and also your father in jail
That caused a disconnect in our family and killed pride
She told the neighbors our parents ain't really provide
Every time all he did was one night
False narrative is all she wanna shed light
Twenty cop cars pulling up he tryna pick her up
Cop tells him I know you innocent but gotta cuff
And all that girl cried wolf and jail calls
Got me searched when I was bout four
Got her father ducking the law
I thought a nigga received a check for a false call
Grew up believing our father was why I'm wild poor
Never thought a sibling would need forgiveness for
I always blamed myself for the fam separation
Even though I was young and only bout four
When the breadwinner leaves home what's your destination nigga