Lyrics Trapped - Elias Omberg

You see
Lately I've been feeling trapped
Thoughts are boiling up
And I just can't say a crap
I feel like I can't tell what's really going on
At my school, at my home, in my head, in my thoughts
When deeply I know that they care, it's just that if I told them, they might get scared
But it's not necessary though, it's just how I live
I know it's different, but that's how life is

I know my guard's always up
That's how protect myself from getting beaten up
Not physically, but mentally tho
I'm a living punching bag in my own home
So

How can I save myself from falling down on my knees again and again?
How can I tell them how I feel without them getting worried of who I am?

I'm getting exhausted
Hearing shit at school, but there I just close it
It's different at home
I love them the most
But my parents are both God and Lucifer at once

I know other families fight too, but the way that we fight is not normal to do
Every little situation turn out so huge
It's like I'm reliving world war two

So Yeah
That's why I feel trapped
All that I'm writing is just a big fact
And that's pretty sad
But I try to stay strong
So to get my feelings out
I wrote this song

How can I save myself from falling down on my knees again and again
How can I tell them how I feel without them getting worried of who I am

When someone asks me how I'm feeling I honestly don't know if I should tell the truth or lie
Cause when I say the truth I always get the same reaction
The person just go awkward and everything gets silenced
So my answer to that question is usually the same
I always say that I am okay
But they know I'm not okay
And I know I'm not okay
But that's the easy thing to say when you just want to get away

I've gotten good at hiding feelings
The secret key is just to get up and fucking deal with it
I think I've done it most of my life
That's why I'm here today
I always get up and fight
But I've got to admit that my feelings hurt too
It's just that I don't want to look weak in front of you
So I try to press pause
And make my face go numb
And the rest of me too

How can I save myself from falling down on my knees again and again?
How can I tell them how I feel without them getting worried of who I am?
Please can somebody help me?
I feel like I'm trapped in myself
Can someone please get me out?
I'm feeling trapped
I'm feeling trapped

I always thought I was strong
But to be honest I think my strength is long gone
Sometimes I want to cry
But I don't dare to try
Cause my heart and tears are both empty and gone

I don't like me now
Insecure, unhappy and my confidence is down
I'm sickened tired of always feeling like crap
I just want to get out
I hate being trapped

I just need to get help
I need a way to get back to myself
I've lost me so many times on this road
I don't even remember who that person was
She were happy
Knew she were enough
She didn't bother to care what other people even thought
I miss that girl, she knew she were tough
Back then life were easy, but now it's just rough

How can I save myself from falling down on my knees again and again?
How can I tell them how I feel without them getting worried of who I am?
Please can somebody help me?
I feel like I'm trapped in myself
Can someone please get me out?
I'm feeling trapped
I'm feeling trapped

Can someone please help me?
I feel like I'm trapped in myself
Can someone please get me out
I'm feeling trapped
I am trapped