Lyrics Deja Vu - Album Version (Edited) - Eminem

DMC we have a mid 30s male found down unresponsive
Possible overdose, substance unknown
Pulse is 60 and thready
Respiration's 8, he's intubated
And we're bagging him now
Uh, BP 90 over palp
Patient is cool, pale and diaphoretic
Has aspirated, uh, GSC is 3
We'll update en route
ETA, 10 minutes

As I fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
Start off with the NyQuil like I think I'll just have a taste
Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate
To a harder prescription drug called Valium, like, yeah, that's great

I go to take just one and I end up like having eight
Now I need something in my stomach 'cause I haven't ate
Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
And you'd think with all I have at stake
Look at my daughter's face
Mommy, something is wrong with dad, I think
He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me
Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos
And he just fell asleep in his car eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat

Sometimes I feel so alone
I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold
It's like something takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like déjà vu
I wanna get away from this place I do
But I can't and I won't say I try
But I know that's a lie 'cause I don't
And why? I just don't know

Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?
That's the devil in my ear I been sober a fuckin' year
And that fucker still talks to me he is all I can fuckin' hear
Marshall, come on, we'll watch the game
It's the Cowboys and Buccaneers

And maybe if I just drink half
I'll be half buzzed for half of the time
Who's that mastermind behind that little line?
With that kind of rationale, man, I got half a mind
To have another half of glass of wine
Sounds asinine, yeah, I know

But I never had no problem with alcohol
Ouch, look out for the wall
Aim for the couch I'm about to fall
I miss the couch and down I go, lookin' like a bouncy ball
Shit must have knocked me out 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all
Wow, what the fuck happened last night? Where am I?
Man, fuck am I hungover and goddamn I got a head ache
Shit half a Vicodin, why can't I?
All systems ready for take off, please, stand by

Sometimes I feel so alone
I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold
It's like something takes over me
Soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like déjà vu
I wanna get away from this place I do
But I can't and I won't say I try
But I know that's a lie 'cause I don't
And why? I just don't know...

So I take a Vicodin, splash, it hits my stomach, then (Ah)
Couple weeks go by, it ain't even like I'm gettin' high
Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah, I'm getting by
Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die

Oh, yeah, there's an excuse you lose Proof, so you use
There's new rules, it's cool if it's helping you to get through
It's twelve noon ain't no harm in self inducing a snooze
What else is new? Fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes?
Now here I am three months later full blown relapse
Just get high until the kids get home from school, homes, relax
And since I'm convinced that I'm insomniac
I need these pills to be able to sleep, so I take 3 naps

Just to be able to function throughout the day let's see
That's an Ambien each nap how many Valium? Three?
And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep
Okay, so now you see the reason how come he
Has taken four years just to put out an album, B
See me and you we almost had the same outcome, Heath

'Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia thing
It was bologna, was it the methadone, ya think?
Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos
Your VCR tape cases with you Ambient CR
Great places to hide 'em, ain't it?
So you can lie to Hallie
I'm going beddy-bye Whitney, baby, good night, Alaina
Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in ambulance
They said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn

Sometimes I feel so alone
I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold
It's like something takes over me
Soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like déjà vu
I wanna get away from this place I do
But I can't and I won't say I try
But I know that's a lie 'cause I don't
And why? I just don't know