Lyrics Black Magic - Este

I've been called sociopathic, have dealt in black magic
Started rapping cause the only thing I'd finish was fapping
Yall use to laughing, laughing with the Este
I'm use to feeling crappy, cowardly. Searching for the best of me
Feeling lazy trying to find the recipe To break the sensation of stagnation
Either intensely praised or hated. Most the time deserve it I face it
Feeling naked in these songs Cause like Kendrick I be writing my wrongs
For you to judge, for you to hate, For you to dance on the floor make your doobie shake
How many movies does it take to make to get a movie date?
Yeah, talking to the females, feeling okay online so send me them emails
Or get a letter in a real life, am I corny or iconic I can never decide
What'll be demise? What'll be demise?
Can I find the time to never lie and write my clever rhymes
Can I find the time to never die and live my life right man
It's all up in question, don't have the answers but I know that life's a blessing
Even when it's stressing, had to find my flexing cause my health still detriment
But I beat being a pessimist, worked on my spit now my breath is peppermint
Meaning hella cool, fella's wanna duel, want a spoon of my own fuel
Challenge status quo without even being cruel that's the way I do
Except when I don't, all talk is toxic, it's like my mouth need soap
Self-doubting narcissist even my pouts are dope
Heart palpitations how do I cope, wrecked from stress
I possess a finesse that'll be unleashed, unless
Im defeated by the best of my worst
Like can I put in the work?
Can I release myself from peers piercing my worth?
And What's a bad habit if you erase the urge?
Special from birth but what's important is how you spend time on Earth
Diggity damn, I'm a motherfucking walking cliché'
A Portland DJ, riding my bike around on hella busy freeways
Use to lose my keychains, now I attach it to the back pack just to be safe
It's about the baby steps to slay your lazinesses breath
I invest the time to keep my flaws in check
Fuck surface reality Im craving what's in depth
Protect my parents crest cause I'm forever in debt
I'm forever in debt, forever in debt
You gotta respect the suspect implications of death