Lyrics Thinking Out Loud - Figure flows

Thinking out loud
Life is a funny thing
Guess you just gotta get on with it

Hear me out tho
This is nothing but the facts
I oray the music works cause I'm tired of serving cats
I'm tryna make a change from them raps to these raps
And if it doesn't work I guess I'm back to flipping packs
I had to take a break to get my mind right
I don't want no fame or no limelight?
I guess it comes with it
I sold out my first show, I don't know how I did it
So focused on this dream that I ain't seen no one in a minute
Please forgive me
I hope they understand it
You know I can't change it, if God has planned it
Sometimes I fucking can't stand it
Missing out on time with my little daughter, I should be there for her
"Daddy I'm your number one supporter" is what she tells me
And that shit melts me
So I can't fail G
One day I'll be wealthy
Depression had me low but I just dealt with it myself G
Mentally I'm drained so I know this shit ain't healthy
Trust me
I know this shit ain't healthy

Life had me fucked up, this is what it has come to:
Imagine trying to run but you got no where you can run to
Staring at this bottle thinking I should just get drunk too
Looking in my mirror like 'that's not the guy I once knew'
You know the amount of times I shed tears, it made me sick
Hiding my emotions, had me sleeping in my whip
I blame it on myself, 'cause I'm the captain of this ship
And even through my worst days, never asked no one for shit
I wish i had a person I could chat to
Man was in a hole fam
I was on my own fam
Only got myself to blame, 'cause I never told men
Pride can be your biggest downfall when you're a grown man
Even with these losses had to take them as my lessons
It's funny how your whole life can change in a few seconds
Is God really real 'cause he ain't answering my questions
Or maybe that he is, but I'm just blinded to my Blessings
Questions

I say it how it is, 'cause that's the thoughts up in my head
It's funny hoe people show you more love when you dead
Thinking about my grandma I remember what she said:
"Keep your faith strong and don't let these devils in your head"
I told myself: rise up, stand back on your feet
Actions speak louder so be carefull when you speak
Pain is only temporary so don't take that as defeat
You're born to be a leader so don't follow like a sheep
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Thank you all for doubting me
Sometimes I look around and ask myself who's really down for me
Not a single person has ever told me that they're proud of me
Still, my heart is pure and I will take that to the ground with me
Believe that
I don't want to sympathy,
Do this one thin for me:
Ask all of your loved ones how they're feeling
Everybody fights their own battles with their demons
So please never judge a book before you start reading