Lyrics Dissociating - G-0n

Pushing all my buttons
Now I'm running out of options
Got me thinking crazy
I'm inhaling all these toxins

If life is so amazing
Then please tell me why I'm fading away
Got me feeling like another star
Dying in space

They always told me
Nothing good would come from running away
Taking your advice
Got me fuckin running in place

If you take it like a man
Then you won't feel the pain
Now I'm disconnecting
Feels like I'm just trying in vain

If no one told you
That this was the last time
That you'd hear from me
Tell me what you'd really feel

Nah I'm playing
I be joking for the fuck it
The only time I feel alive
Is when I'm coming close to death

I'm flying just to free my mind
Now I think I'm closing in
Got my feelings in a box
Now It's time to open it

Little did I think
That I would ever be as lost this
Open up my eyes
Just to see the same shit

Im just thankful
That I get to see another night
Light another joint
But this time I ain't really feeling right

Never sober
Keep on going til it's over
Mentality unstable
Every night I'm getting colder

Pushing all my buttons
Now I'm running out of options
Got me thinking crazy
I'm inhaling all these toxins

If life is so amazing
Then please tell me why I'm fading away
Got me feeling like another star
Dying in space

They always told me
Nothing good would come from running away
Taking your advice
Got me fuckin running in place

If you take it like a man
Then you won't feel the pain
Now I'm disconnecting
Feels like I'm just trying in vain

I know that I've been acting distant lately
Try to keep in mind that I'm dissociating
All the love you give me
Maybe this is really worth it
I been so persistent
I don't want no one to notice

Everything you hear
Is just a product of emotion
When I sing about it
Nothing ever goes unspoken

Now I gotta disappear
If you ever wondered why
Ima make it really clear

I don't really feel like I'm here
I don't really feel the same things you feel no
I don't fear the things that you fear
I don't really feel the same things that you feel no