Lyrics Letter 2 My Mama - Geek Jab

Yeah
Feel like it's been a long time since I talk to you mama
Yea, I just want to tell you that I miss you
It's your son, Donald, Geek Jab Yeah
You know I was holding back tears trying to write this man, it's crazy
I catch myself sitting listening to this beat
I was like I got to write something to you
Yeah, here it go

Listen mama this a note to you
Know it's been a long time since I spoke to you
Couldn't see you face to face so I just wrote to you
I wish heaven had a phone X's and O's to you
And when you passed I was bad I got close to it
I kept hearing your voice in my head said don't do it
But I was going through it
And you already knew it
I got attracted to the trenches and some bad influences

I was messed up in the head dealing with confusion
The only way I can talk to my mama is through the music
Even when I win you not here so it feel like I'm losing
Sometimes I wish we could trade places the devil choosing
Did god let em' choose you
If you lost your only mother tell me what would you do
You let family get too close and why you let them use you
Fake friends used you
I don't think they knew you, it's really been 5 years
Smiling while I'm writing this and holding back tears
And when they ask about they grandma it might hurt my kids
Sometimes I blame myself for this like was it my career
If I ain't go off to korea would you still be here
I lost you and I'm not the same it's time to make it clear
They ask me if I'm living fearless so I'm telling yeah
Cause losing you how I did it was my only fear
They wonder why I got these tatts I tell them mother dear
I tell em' mother dear
And naw we don't hurt the same because my mother dead
Tough love made me stronger so I know she cared
She taught me how to stand tall on my own legs
She was our real protector she ain't trust the feds
Watching over me and bro she ain't go to bed
Sometimes I think she was too strong she ain't take meds
All the ones who was blood man they all fled
All the ones who talked about you I want to get them red

Listen Mama this a note to you
Know it's been a long time since I spoke to you
Couldn't see you face to face so I just wrote to you
I wish heaven had a phone X's and O's to you
And when you passed I was bad I got close to it
I kept hearing your voice in my head said don't do it
But I was going through it
And you already knew it
I got attracted to the trenches and some bad influences

You heard me?
No
No you don't
Say it
I love you
Okay, bye
Now you get right okay?
Alright
Come and visit us sometime
Alright goodbye
Bye