Lyrics House Is Not a Home (feat. Nikisha Reyes) - Gemini Genesis

My God I feel lost, this is something I never saw
That I'd be staring at my phone wondering if I should call
This is not the way I imagined it, no, not at all
Never thought you'd be the one to make me crumble till I fall
This silence is becoming way too much for me to bear
I gave away my heart forgetting I didn't have a spare
Now it's hollow in my chest and I'm tryna make it through
How do I break it to my future that it won't be having you?
It's so hard waking up and not look over at your face
Even harder tryna sleep without our hands locked in place
There's so much that I remember but I'm trying to forget
Cause I see you living life and you don't even seem upset
I'm alone with my thoughts and you're nowhere to be found
But would it ever be the same if you did come back around?
I know the answer to that question so I'm tryna learn the lesson
That's why I'm standing in the booth unleashing all this depression

Oh, you can't hear me cry
Seen my dreams all die
From where you're standing, on your own
It's so quiet here and I feel so cold
This house no longer feels like home

So sick of pouring out these shots, told myself I wouldn't drink
I'm just tryna find a way to clear my head and not think
But the memories are a bitch and that's why they always say
Be careful who you make'em with cause they'll forever stay
Now the walls are closing in, I just wanna say goodbye
Open your text on my screen, says delivered, no reply
Must be easy to ignore when you've already moved on
And your pride can't be swallowed, it's just getting chewed on
Never liked admitting fault, hated being proved wrong
So I kept things to myself but I did that too long
I'd rather open up this book, spill my heart on a few songs
Now your absence is the reason that my heart grew strong
Tried to show you everyday, you were everything I wanted
But your heart had you guarded cause my past kept you haunted
So I'm free now on my own, you left room for me to roam
But it's different in this house that no longer feels like home

Oh, you can't hear me cry
Seen my dreams all die
From where you're standing, on your own
It's so quiet here and I feel so cold
This house no longer feels like home