Lyrics as if - Glaive

Why do I have to listen to you when you have zero to say?
Because I'm young?
All my life I've been young
So I never get a turn!

Hyper-aggressive if I'm honest
I can't stand to be alone
My friends are so progressive
They called me "Faggot" a year ago
And I couldn't cut them off
Because then I'd be on my own
Being obsessive sounds depressing
But it's just the way it goes
Just the way it goes

And will that ever fucking change?

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm, as if I'm never gonna change
(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change
(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change

I'm never gonna change!

My friends on Fentanyl
I hope they find inner peace
On life support for a week
I heard they died in their sleep

There's so much truth in the fiction
Don't know what to believe
There's so much money in addiction that I'm dying to need
Something more (Somethin' more, somethin')
I'm just dying to be something more!
Something more

And will that ever fucking change?

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm, as if I'm never gonna change
(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change
(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change
(As if I'm, as if I'm)

(As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever get it right
(As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever find the words
(As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever be enough
(As if I'm, as if I'm)

I wonder if I'll ever fucking change

As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm, as if I'm never gonna change
(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change
(As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change

I'm never gonna change!

Everybody talks to me like I'm crazy
Oh, I should change
Why should I change?
I don't even gotta find out who I am
You want me to change, it's crazy
You tell me I'm bad before I even get to be anything
What the hell is that? Original sin or something?

It's you that wants to end before you can start
But when I say I wanna say anything, I'm not right?
Not gonna cry

I'm gonna find my place in this world, count on it