Lyrics oh are you bipolar one or two? - Glaive

The moment I turn twenty-three
I'll grab the gun my father gave to me
On my birthday

When I turned seventeen
I'll lay a note right next to me that says
"Split the money that I have
Evenly between my mom and my dad"

I'll speak so eloquently on what to do with each half
I'll tell Rebecca "Buy a home
Down the road from Cypress Grove"
And I know, mother, you don't want me to go
But I must go

And I'll tell Mark to buy a car
Please know you're always in my heart
Even when my conscious self departs
You did your job

And to Chris, I hope you're smiling
'Cause you kept the boy from dying
For almost a decade

Man, fuck what my friends say
One twitch of the finger
Fuck around, and I'm dead weight

Don't believe what the press say
I did this for me and no one else in the best way
To all of my friends
You know I wish you the best, and

When you say my name
Say that shit with your chest, and
I think I should be clear
I don't wanna

I don't wanna be here with people that I
That I didn't know last year at fuckin' all
You don't wanna be here when I blow my top off
Girl, I don't want to be here at all

At all
At all
At all
At all

I'll put the metal to skin
And I'll go off on a whim and say
That I don't wanna be here at fucking all

I wonder if tomorrow would've been better
In all honesty, it don't even matter at all
'Cause it bends, it breaks, it folds
And I'm here right now so just hear me out

Know I let you down
But I can't, no, I can't
I can't change anything, this trajectory
It was meant for me, it was meant to be

Don't let my mom see me before they bury me
'Cause the man in that coffin, shit, he's barely me
Plenty people gon' say they were there for me
They weren't there for me, they didn't care for me, so

I don't wanna be here with people that
That I didn't know last year at fuckin' all
You don't wanna be here when I blow my top off
Girl, I don't want to be here at all

At all
At all
At all
At all

I'll put the metal to skin
And I'll go off on a whim and say
That I don't wanna be here at fucking all