Lyrics /Slf_Wrth. - Gregory Nichols

"Wait, get over here, Gregory-"

(Ahh)
God forgive me, hands full, I have sin
Won't you take he, shake the, save me
"Spin again, Spin Again"

Look, God what would it take for me to love he
A love to thyself, something I'd never try and pray for
Just used what 'twas dealt, then enter the side of mind, A baseline
Vibrations I felt, it's almost as this mic's a weapon, and I'm killing myself
See tucked away inside of a project, these verses were born
Bundled at 360 degrees, my cycles are warm
Waxing and waning, my focus obtaining and smoothly complaining
About the ride home, it feels like I never was born
Sometimes it feels like a nigga slipped right out of an "-ast"
Collecting scratches and bruises when People's promises crash
Land right inside of my glass house though nobody gasped
Just one of them faults I hope y'all overlook when I Pass
But See, In the driver seat of life one foot's asleep on the gas
Meanwhile, the other foots malicious and off in your ass
So tell your sister, tell your mother, Baby Greg has at last
Decided to Make peace with self and lay in the grass and say-

God forgive me, hands full, I have sin
Won't you take he, shake the, save me as I spin
God forgive me, hands full, I have sin
Won't you take he, shake the, save me as I spin

"You're not-you need to be up here"

With this mic, baby I Free niggas, I'm Richmond to field niggas
But I kill niggas, I'm warm slugs from fake niggas
I break nigga, I get weak, I flake nigga
No straight nigga, I've been down, defaced nigga
Can't pull triggers, I've been Jumped, I've been ganged
I've been shamed by niggas doing the same thang
I maintained, I'm lonely, I'm Fontaine
I'm right brain, I can't Spell, I can't sang
I break down, I don't smoke, I'm dark brown
I self-harm, But That's been for years now
I'm love's clown, when tears fall, My heart drowns
An empath, abused, grown and confused
So I creep on in, lingering, welcome to lion's den, here I win
Here I sin, heart of pride, I repent, felt a blow, to my chin
Broke my jaw, crack of shin, the devil eyes
Many men, souls are lost, time is bent
This is it, digging pits, riding 'round with your clique, talking shit
Acting like, ain't no Nigga fucking with, You and yours, void of course
That's the way, we present, I'm trouble bound
Heaven Sent, Cayce-Born, Represent
September 04, like never before, a knock at the door
It shattered my world and gave me my soul
Them devils I know, that cut off they nose
Will reap what they sow, so smell that shit
Yes, it's Payback Nigga

God forgive me, hands full, I have sin
Won't you take he, shake the, save me as I spin
God forgive me, hands full, I have sin
Won't you take he, shake the, save me as I spin
God forgive me, hands full, I have sin
Won't you take he, shake the, save me as I spin
God forgive me, hands full, I have sin
Won't you take he, shake the, save me as I-
(Spin Again, Spin Again) "what"
(Spin Again, Spin Again)
(Gunshot)
"Game Over"
(Scene Beep)

"Hi Greg, thank you for reaching out
Um, I-I really, really, if you, if you need Someone, I'm always here
You're welcome to stay here, you know too
That if things get really bad to call 9-8-8
You know that right? Um, but please I just need to know that you're okay
And I want to tell you that I Love you and you are a very strong person
You are a very strong person Greg and I'm here for you, okay
You don't have to be alone, you're not alone (Pause)
Alright I love you and umm, remember 9-8-8 (Pause)
I Love you"
(Scene Beep)

One thing that definitely did help me
It helped me get right here, um, they're here, they're here, um
Jeffery, Laurie, Mary-Grace, Ben, & Hannah, I guess but-
(Laughter) "We Love You!" I Love you too
(Applause) "Another question, really quick too
So I was gonna ask one really quick question
To each of you, like what helps you get out of that dark space the most"
What helps me is by telling myself "I'm gonna get out of this when it's time"
But specifically, telling myself "You have to want to get out of this" cause
I don't know, I'm a person of faith and I don't believe that you will
Ever be brought to a certain spot to just be left, and by doing that
It's ugly, it's horrible, I'm a highly emotional person, and I learned
To lean towards that and just say "I gotta cry, I gotta be upset
I gotta be frustrated with myself" but by doing that I fully embrace
The human experience, I fully embrace what it is to have,
What it means to have flaws and to realize the imperfections
That we all have, from you to you to you to me, it's something where
I can look at it dead in the mirror and just say "I'm just like everybody else
But I'm who I am supposed to be right now" and that helps me
Everyday, just keep going and keep chipping away, so-
(Applause)
(Scene Beep)

(If I was ready, to go home)