Lyrics letterfromadeathbed - Heffy

I'm just trying to find
A reason to care
I once believed in a god till i cried out to him
And nobody was there

A burden on my brain
That isnt going away
And now i'm looking for reasons
That i shouldn't need this
But i can't turn away

I know i said the last time
That i wouldn't relapse
But now i'm standing
On my deathbed
And i don't want to stay
When i've always been this way

I know i said the last time
That i wouldn't go back
But now it's been 3 nights
At the hotel we met at
And you're not here with me
But the memory remains

And as i took the last line
(And as i took the last line)
I was approaching the light
(I was approaching the light)
I felt your presence again
With you're head next to mine
What a beautiful sight
(what a beautiful sight)

I made up my mind
I'm friending i'm fried
I don't need your love
I just need these drugs

Ive got no reason to hide
Tell momma i'm fine
It'll be ok down the line
But i'm tired of trying

I know i said the last time
That i wouldn't relapse
But now i'm standing
On my deathbed
And i don't want to stay
When i've always been this way

I know i said the last time
That i wouldn't go back
But now it's been 3 nights
At the hotel we met at
And you're not here with me
But the memory remains