Lyrics next to u - Heylog

There is much I wonder about a great many things (Heylog)
I understand that
Do you?

You make it so hard to live
I feel like I'm in hell
My parents ain't raise no kid
Who'll just end up killing himself
I could shut down
And no one will ever find me

I could lie down
And see you there next to me
I need you to focus
I'm crying, I'm broken
But no one really cares how I'm feeling so hopeless
I hate your guts, and I hate your friends
I realized you all suck, so I'll just cut you instead

Now I think of you less, 'cause I thought highly of you
So I distanced away to try something new
I'm steady being myself, something you'd never do
But I still wish you the best, even though I still hate you

You texted me
I'm not sure what to say
I'll respond in a week
Maybe two, maybe three

Avoiding us and move on
Though I still write you in songs
It's the emotions you hold
That never feels wrong

God I'm so disappointed at everything that I do
I'll play some guitar, record a couple of loops
But it ain't met with my standards
So I start something new

At least I put in some work
Which you'll never do
Taking pics of the wall
Add a plant and a book, write a verse and a bridge
'Cause I ain't good with no hook
I keep repeating myself
Am I speaking too much?
I'm not a person who talks, so I'll just chill in the back and watch!