Lyrics I Don't Want to Die - Hi-Rez

I should have been a better man, I never learned my lessons
I should have never stressed the shit that I was always stressing
I don't know if I was good enough to go to heaven,
Instead of love I was focused on
Possessions. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you,
I should have cared for you,
I stayed even though I knew that I was bad for you.
I lied every single time that I sweared to you.
I guess that's what I deserve...
Now all this guilt that I'm stuck with, was hard for me trust and;
I'm sorry to my friends and family, oh Lord I got stuck when,
I took advantage of the person I was in love with...
I guess me and karma finally got caught up with.
I coulda been a better brother,
Son and older cousin, I was wasting too much time holding grudges;
When shit was crazy I pretended I ain't notice nothing I
Swore it was the truth but I really just knew it wasn't...
I don't really want to die right now,
I'm so sorry for the lies right now...
I don't even have tears no more, if I did I would cry right now...
I don't really want to die right now,
I'm so sorry for the lies right now...
I don't even have tears no more, if I did I would cry right now...
I was overthinking way too much, I lost my sanity...
I put money and fame over my family.
I hope I go to heaven, I don't want to see what hell is;
I'm sorry for the times I lied,
I was being selfish we were
Arguing I never got to say goodbye to you,
Last thing that came out my mouth: was a lie to you.
You chasing money and women instead of spending time with you.
I guess I had to die to figure out I'd die for
You; shoulda said sorry all those times I made you mad,
Now my son and daughter growing up without a dad.
I was never there for you when you told me you were sad;
I took for granted every thing we had...
I'm sorry that I brought this drama into our home,
I should have paid attention to you and just put down my phone,
Now I'm regretting everything laying here all alone.
Nobody made me do these things, I did them all on my own...
I don't really want to die right now,
I'm so sorry for the lies right now...
I don't even have tears no more, if I did I would cry right now...
I don't really want to die right now,
I'm so sorry for the lies right now...
I don't even have tears no more, if I did I would cry right now...