Lyrics Szns - Hrtbrkblake

Tell me where to start, in all my dreams I die before I get to leave my mark
I think about relationships I watched get torn apart
I think about the times I never got that second chance
And in my wake I always leave a trail of broken hearts
I got all this pain and haven't found a way to numb it
Hide all my emotions is the only cure I know
I am not OK and you could hear it in my tone
You dont want to see what I am like when it gets cold

My mood starts to change with the seasons I know
I've been getting mad for no reason I know
They think that my smile is misleading I know
You're concerned about my well being I know
My mood starts to change with the seasons I know
Saying that i'm fine is deceiving I know
I'm losing the fight with my demons I know
I'm so sick and tired of feeling alone

Just leave me, you dont get how it feels to be me
It feels like nobody really sees me, everyone makes life look fucking easy, easy
Fuck my mental health, why would I call you when could do that shit myself
I dont care how small every favor is a burden to make me feel worthless
Especially when your privilege keeps on telling me to play the cards that I was dealt
No gives a fuck if its a bad hand
Cuz mine is full of early deaths and bad plans
And ideas always end up in the trash can
So this right here might really be my last stand
Maybe, that's why I like it better when its rainy
Just listen to me tell me I'm not crazy
When its hot I start to feel like Hulk now
And trust me you wont like me when I'm angry

My mood starts to change with the seasons I know
I've been getting mad for no reason I know
They think that my smile is misleading I know
You're concerned about my well being I know
My mood starts to change with the seasons I know
Saying that i'm fine is deceiving I know
I'm losing the fight with my demons I know
I'm so sick and tired of feeling alone

My mood starts to change with the seasons
I've been getting mad for no reason
They think that my smile is misleading
You're concerned about my well being
My mood starts to change with the seasons
Saying that i'm fine is deceiving
I'm losing the fight with my demons
I'm so sick and tired of feeling alone