Sad Addict

The armor on my heart is loose again
I don't know what I did here to loosen it
They say love is a war and I lose again
But the blessing is pouring all through the rain
I praise your name
I pray for a way to release the pain
I pray for a day I don't feel estranged
I pray for a way to get through the maze
Without losing faith
Everyday I feel like I been in a daze
Everyday it feel like I been getting played
Every saying I heard now makes sense to me
Like you never know what you had
Til the day you can't get it back
It's simple mathematics
Multiply all your bad habits
By traumatic past actions
Now I've become a sad addict
I don't believe
At
All
You wanted
Me
To
Fall
Come back to the light
We've been living in darkness
Generational hardships
Man, I hate that the heartless
Put this target on our skin
All the rhetoric missing the marksmen
Who touch children with bullets
You kidding me
You gone turn a blind eye to this willingly
What does being American really mean
I'm a part of this country
Don't expect you to love me
But you oughta acknowledge me as a human
And stop treating me ugly
Cuz I never treat you that way
There's some things that we can't erase
But tomorrow's a brand new day
I just hope that it's not to late
At
All
You wanted
Me
To
Fall
Come back to the light