Lyrics Truth - Iamyounglupe

If love is a game, then I ain't ready to play
I'm mentally scarred, memories won't fade away
It's been a minute, I look at my watch, it's been some time
Addicted to the feeling
When you used to be mine

But I admit it, I wasn't ready, to be your steady
The day you left me, I couldn't face it, you tried to play me
You told your family what I did, but what about you
I'm guessing if they knew the truth, wouldn't know what to do

Remember going through my phone, just to find a text
Remember breaking in my email, found that POF
And even after that I would never violate privacy
But when I finally did, girl, you violated me

We had plans, to get married, I'll let that fade away
The day you left your ring, I had to sit and let it marinate
I begged you every time you caught me, just to take me back
But when I finally caught you, you just left it at that

Okay, I get it, you finally finished with me, why you let, weeks go
Without, saying you miss me, intentionally tried to diss me,
When I called, just dismissed me, you told me you wanted change
But why you changing individually

Just so you know, I learned my lesson, when we broke up
Was depressed and contemplating suicide and couldn't do it
On my mind, was our future, on your mind, was your future
We went separate ways, but this is what I would say to you

I'll never be good enough, so I blame myself
I miss you, I lost you, so honestly what's left
A lot of drinking and smoking, it does me good
I look in the mirror, who have I changed to

The way I'm feeling, I'm sinking low in my feelings
I broke the news it was tragic
Never could I have imagine
Losing my best friend
Why does forever end
If you ever find love, then love from a distance

I tried
Fit myself in equations, subtracted my infidelity
I changed, you wasn't feeling me, fxck it, I'll leave the situation
But I really needed you, I even let you take a break to see what you wanted to do

(Wait) A moment of silence, I lived in solitude, me
Constantly texting you
All I got was some attitude
Thinking that's very rude, the thought alone, ain't sticking, glue
I figured you was playing games, I should've got the fxcking clue

And what it all boils down to
This would've never happened if I was around you
I'm in a circus of feelings, I'm just a clown to you
Fxck feelings and fxck love, go do you

For all the others going through it, gets get lit tonight
I got the lean in the Sprite
I feel like dying tonight
So here's a toast to all the losers, that's feeling like me
Patience, you gotta have it, if you wait
Eventually

If it glitters, you'll find out that it ain't gold
And just quit lying to yourself, and don't tell me that
"You ain't know", and I'm guessing you running game
Now my quarters are running low, now I'm in the Garden of Eden
I'm done chasing these hoes

Why did I ever let this happen, is you teaching me a lesson, if it is
I get the message, once again, I feel depressed
I was the cure, you're my disease
And I was saving you
But you were killing me