Lyrics Eating Me Alive - Iniquity Rhymes feat. Cryptic Wisdom

Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be
You gotta play your cards right
If you're to earn the life you need
I thought I had it figured all out
So went ahead and let it all out
But what I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive

Everyday I pave the ground extending roads
Where I'm going remains uncertain, renowned but no abode
Music's my savior, my nature, found ways to level with those in need
No show of greed, but if I don't open up I'll explode
I'm full of these doubts, even now, there's no way you'll rob my flame
But that won't stop my mind from clouding, I'm afraid to switch up lanes

It's like I'm stuck in cruise control and everyone's tryna get passed me
While I'm too stubborn in my ways "S**** it, they can drive around me"
Think my problem is I become too comfortable
Unlike a bull I lose my drive, hit rock bottom, I have to pull
Myself back up outta this hole, hopeless though, important you know
That I'm only human but you hand me the rope, I'm not alone

Life likes to throw us these curveballs, that's not what I want
I want control, I'm at the top looking down on myself hoping I don't flop
It's happened a lot, I lose myself and forget that I'm here to lead, yeah
Your ears lend me support, believe that's all I need
And so I think...

Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be
You gotta play your cards right
If you're to earn the life you need
I thought I had it figured all out
So went ahead and let it all out
But what I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive

That after all I put in I still don't have all that I want
That sinful manners have caused this battle, coup D'etat
Of mindful matters, these daggers of sorrow rip through all I got
I spend all these sleepless nights but give up? Hell no I shall not
Wishing more would come is just a weakness, how
Have I overcome in the past? Well you help me beat 'em down

I mean my fears, you give me power to save myself from drowning
How the sound unwinds me keeps me grounded, a soldier is inbound
They seem to do well with their gimmicky raps
But I bring true music that speaks to the heart, the lyrics they lack
I focus on my message, the essence, you've given me that
Surround myself with friends not those who just feed off digits, relax

A wicked relapse somehow turns receptive vision to c***
No pivoting back, but I won't give in, got no businnes with that
I sit in this trap constantly plotting my vicios attacks
Refuse to join the rotting, join my mission, musician has snapped
So c'mon!

Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be
You gotta play your cards right
If you're to earn the life you need
I thought I had it figured all out
So went ahead and let it all out
But what I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive

It's eating me alive to think after all that's happened...
Recall my passion, my past let's recap it, balance was absent
I was captive, found out rappin' provided something I haven't
Felt, abided to rules of attraction and rose from the ashes
After all that I still lose control and self esteem
Man I feel like homing devices converged on my soul just to feed

Fears are dethroning me, exposing grief, opposing teams
Composing schemes to overthrow my deeds
I reap what I sow, that's what I deem
So what happens when I sow negativity and doubt myself?
Gotta intervene and shout my wealth cuz I'm rich with dreams that sprout and hell
Better bring some meaner bouts I'll yell

Til I seem serene, surmount my hill
We're the kings and queens our routes fulfill when we take that leap and pounce
It all seems simple when you see from outside the box
I am Legend, it's time to kindle your speakers got the game on lock
The world is Up in flames and I will Never be Forgotten now
So Welcome me Home cuz I'm here to claim my crown

Sometimes this life is not what you expect it to be
You gotta play your cards right
If you're to earn the life you need
I thought I had it figured all out
So went ahead and let it all out
But what I know is that it's my doubt eating me alive

It's eating me alive
It's eating me alive
It's eating me alive

It's eating me

It's eating me alive